Up dated ... 04-04-12 ....9.05 am
This was something that happened a few years ago, i think would count more of a confession and something, I never told anyone, one of those that I would be too embarrassing to tell, if you can put up with the first page or so it soon gets to the point as all my tails do.
My parents had asked me if later that week I could baby-sit (that's not quite the right word for it) my younger brother Jon for a couple of nights, the Thursday night and Friday night to be exact as they had got to go out in the evening and couldn’t really get out of it as it was partly work related even though they were going out for a drink and dinner, I didn’t mind as he didn’t take much watching and wasn't really the babysitting age, more make sure he is okay, My parents don’t go out very often and I thought it would be a good treat for them both, I had a lot of studying to do anyway so it made little difference to me.
On the Thursday night they went out at around 6.30, on leaving they told me my brother was up stairs and to keep an eye on him, “don’t let him get up to mischief” she said, “I wont” I said with one eye on the TV, heaven knows what they thought he would get up to on his own and in his own bedroom even though he can be a little rascal at times like most boys, then mum surprised me by putting her head back round the door and saying to me, “I have noticed your bedroom is a total mess as well, so you had better have that cleaned up by the weekend, or there will be no spending money until it is, is that clear young lady?”
“OH OK Okay” I replied in an irritated manner …. Then muttering under my breath “As if I didn’t have enough to do.”
After about an hour I thought I had better have a look in on him like mum said, I went up stairs to see what my brother was doing, he was rather quiet for once I thought as I climbed the stairs to his bedroom, but when I got there he was just laid on the bed watching a video, “Hello” he said, “I heard mum say you had to tidy your room or no spending money.”
“Yes, I will do it later Mr Big Ears,” I replied. He hears everything and he listens in to everyone’s conversations which irritates me, I replied “so you will have heard mum say you have to go to bed early tonight as well then.”
“No” he frowned, “She didn’t”
“Well you have heard it now” I said giving him a big gloating smile.
He turned away and just went back to watching TV, as I stood there in his room looking round I thought I may as well stay here and watch the film with him a little, “move up fatty” I smiled at him and he moved down the bed so that I could lay on the edge of the bed with my head on the pillow with my lower body and thighs behind him.
I laid on the edge of the bed beside him just idly chatting and watched the video with him, after only about twenty minutes or so I could feel myself feeling a little drowsy, so I thought I would just close my eyes and listen to the TV and rest my eyes a little, well I must have actually fell asleep for just a little while.
I was woken slightly when I could sense something moving close around my face, I was still drowsy and I thought I might be just imagining it so I only opened my eyes slightly to see what it was, still thinking it would be just my imagination, but I was shocked with what I saw and I could hardly believe my eyes, I could see my little brother standing right in front of me with a hard and very erect penis, not only that but his trousers and shorts were around his knees and he was rubbing his cock with his hand right in front of me, as if he was showing it to me or something as I was laid asleep on my side on the edge of the bed, “what the hell does he think he is doing” I was thinking as he was very quietly groaning and gasping to himself as he wanked his little hard cock, I wasn’t only shocked that he masturbated, but also that he would have the nerve to do it while I was still in the same room, even if I was asleep, (or so he still thought) and that he was doing it right in front of me, I couldn't imagine for the life of me why he was doing that “what a disgusting little pervert he is” I thought.
I was so shocked I didn’t know immediately what to do or even know how best how handle this kind of thing, my mind was racing as I laid there thinking what I should do, the safest thing I thought for now was to just lay there for a moment and pretend I was still asleep, I thought he will probably soon get bored with it and he might just stop doing it and put it way. but as I lay there for a very long minute or so thinking it through, I watched him through my ever so slightly opened eyes, I slowly regained my composure as i watched him and I soon became fascinated in what he was doing to himself and how he was doing it, I had never seen a boy do this before although I of course knew about it I wasn’t that stupid, but i had never been so close to a hard cock, even if it was my young brothers, I had seen him have a wee when I was in the bath when he had come in to use the toilet, I would not make it obvious that I was watching him and trying to look that I wasn’t really taking much notice if you know what I mean, but even then I found myself curiously watching him but it would soon just pass me by when he left the bath room, but now he has a hard-on and I have caught him playing with it I found it really fascinating with what he was doing, so I just watching him while he thought I was fast asleep, what harm could it do I thought if I just watched him for a moment, I didn’t have much choice really unless I wanted to create a big scene and that wasn’t my thing at all.
I could tell he was obviously well engrossed in what he was doing and really enjoying it, I think the boys get the better deal there than we girls get somehow, I was curios to what he would do next and how far the cheeky little bugger would go with it all, it was like a real peep show in to a boy’s bedroom, I often wondered how boys played with there cocks and now I was getting to know first hand, if you will ignore the pun.
As I watched with great interest I noticed that now he was rubbing his little cock faster and harder than before and he rubbed his hand right up and down his shaft in longer strokes and I was surprised he now pulled his hand back right to the very base of his cock as his strokes got longer and i noticed it would pull his foreskin back and reveal a bright red shiny end that was getting wet, I could hear his breathing and pants of pleasure, his groaning seemed quite loud in the quiet room with just the TV quietly and gently playing away to no one, as I said he was very obviously enjoying himself and so was I now watching him and smiling to myself inside, what a shock he would get if I opened my eyes now got up and just looked at him I thought.
But then he suddenly stopped what he was doing and moved away from me a little, I thought he had just had enough and finished what he was doing, I might as well just let him know I have woke up now I thought to myself, I will just give it a moment as not to make it obvious that I had been watching him most of the time.
I watched as he took some toilet tissue that was on the bedside table and he wiped his little red wet end, then he took some more tissue and I remember thinking what did he want that for as he laid it very carefully on the edge of the bed and right by the side of my face, that puzzled me.
He then moved back close to me and he put his hand back on his still stiff cock and slowly started rubbing his hand up and down it again and wanking himself off, I couldn’t understand why he was doing it so close to me and right in front of my face, surly he would realise I only had to open my eyes and I would see him masturbating, I would have thought he would have done it when he was alone and when no one could accidently catch him.
He started playing with his cock slowly and after a little while as he pulled back his foreskin harder I could see a clear liquid starting to seep out of the end of his cock and stringing down off it on to the tissue paper that he had put there, surly he is not cumming I thought, or is he, he had some other tissue and after a moment he stopped and wiped the tip of his cock dry quite meticulously, so maybe he had cum then, well that was a bit of a let down I thought, I imagined there would be much more to it than that, if that was all it was I didn’t know what all the fuss was about, but I was obviously wrong because it was still very hard and stiff in his hand and this time when he then started to rub it up and down again he edged just a little closer to me and rubbing his stiff cock closer to my face.
Now the tip of his cock was dry it wasn’t long before he was rubbing it and groaning now really hard and soon he was pushing his hard little prick right up to my face and sometimes the tip of his cock would actually slightly touch me as he was rubbing it hard and he was softly gasping in pleasure.
Now like before he started pulling his foreskin back hard as he wanked and it would reveal the bright red end, it looked like a flashing light as his foreskin went back and forth over it as he rubbed.
He was wanking off right in front of my face giving me a really good view when suddenly I noticed his tummy start to tremble and his groaning become high pitched and suddenly in one final low stifled gasping groan from him I saw his whole body start to shake and tremble almost uncontrollably, I guessed he must be on the verge of cuming and I really wanted to see it and watch, he quickly (and thankfully) moved his loaded cock away from pointing at my face to pointed it down at the tissue, but he seemed to have lost control and he gave a trembling and gasping little squeal as a hard squirt of cum suddenly shot out and hit the tissue but some of it just hit me right on my chin close to the side of my mouth, thinking back it couldn’t have been much but at the time it felt quite a lot and I could feel myself flinch back in shock and surprise as he shot his first load, what seemed at the time all over my face, he was still wanking hard but he had moved his prick now even further away from my face as I keenly watched with surprise as another long squirt after squirt of cum splats all over the tissue paper right in front my face and each time it squirted I heard his stifled gasp and groan, I looked with great fascination as it squirted and splashed on the tissue just a few centimetres away and I was surprised and shocked how hard it squirted and that his little balls could held that much cum and that he could cum so much, by the time it had finished there was quite a pool of white grey cum soaking in to the tissue.
I thought he must have noticed that I was awake when I flinched back in surprise at the first cum splashed up on to me, but maybe he must have been too engrossed in what he was doing to notice that. I just lay there and wondered what to do next as the situation didn’t seem to be getting any easier, although he had now finished I now had a little of his cum on my face by my mouth, I didn’t quite know how that was going to be explained away by either of us without being very suspicious.
After a few moments his panting stopped and he got a tissue and really gently wiped around my chin, I was still looking at his now very pink cock, it was still half erect it didn’t seem to go down very quickly at all and I could see it throbbing quite hard and very red, rising and falling as it throbbed, he pulled up his underpants and then pulled up his trousers and he sat back down looking all hot and flusted, then a few minutes after that I pretended to slowly wake up, I said to my brother with a false yawn and stretch “oh sorry Jon, I must have fell asleep a little, did I miss anything” which I didn’t mean to say and it made me smile a little bit, I sat up and felt my chin with my hand saying, “I feel a little sticky here” he looked a little awkward and he didn’t say anything much, so I said again, “my chin feels sticky … god, I wasn’t drooling was I”
“Erm, yes quite a lot” Jon said all cheesy and with a way over the top exaggerated nod.
I smiled inside my head and I made an excuse that I must get something to eat, then I went downstairs to the kitchen all the while thinking “what a right little lying pervert my brother is.”
I sat down and watched the TV for a little while but didn’t notice what was on and I felt a smile come across me face, what had happened was going through my mind, the picture of him wanking stayed in my head, I was shocked and surprised with myself that I had really enjoyed what i had seen and how it had happened, seeing him wank and cum like that so closely excited me for some reason, I think it was also hearing him groan and shiver as he squirted his cum and how far and hard it squirted too, all that had shocked, surprised and excited me and I wanted to watch it over again, well I did in my mind, over and over again.
After a while I started feeling a little bit guilty, but that cleared quickly later, after all I hadn’t done anything wrong had I, if fact I didn’t do anything, all that had happened was he had done something to himself, probably something all boys do all the time and he did it when I was asleep, well sort of, mind you my face did feel a little sticky so I went and washed my face.
My patents wasn’t out late and they were back by 10.30 in a giggly mood, they must have had a drink, it effected them like that, they asked me if my brother had been alright and gone to bed okay and if everything was fine, I said “yes fine, no problem at all” and I gave them both a kiss and went to bed.
The following day when I woke, I thought about what had happened the previous day and it felt as though I had just dreamed it, almost not real, I had a busy day and I put it out of my mind, so I just got dressed, had my breakfast and carried on.
The day went on like any other, but as the day got later my mind started going back to the night before. That evening my parents were out again around the same time, I wondered if my brother would do the same again if I went to his room and pretended to fall asleep, I wanted so much to watch him do it again, I found it so shocking, disgusting and exciting all at the same time, my heart was pounding so much as I thought about it, I was amazed I was so fascinated by what had happened the night before, but I had a partial guilt feeling in what I was doing, was it right, was I encouraging him, was he the pervert or was it me I asked myself, I re-examined the situation and I thought about it in an open minded and in an objective view, I came to the conclusion it was obviously him who was the pervert as I came to the conclusion before, I wasn’t doing anything was I, I was just laid there and I did nothing, so my conscience was clear………Then I though maybe I should give him the benefit of the doubt, maybe he didn’t mean to do what he did, maybe it was the first time he had done it and that things had got out of hand, maybe when he had sat down and thought about it he would decide he wasn’t going to do that ever again like the first time I explored myself, mind you, I was a lot older than he was, maybe if i tell you what happened maybe that will help you understand my thoughts later.
It was roughly 13 years ago when I was about 15, I was looking around in my mums clothes wardrobe once when I was home alone, when I found in her knicker drawer a vibrator, now to be honest I had seen it there a couple of times before but I had just put it straight back, but this time, I don’t know why, but this time it had aroused my curiosity, today it looked different some how, almost inviting, it was a strange looking vibrator, one that seemed to have lots of buttons that did strange things, I examined it a little more and I thought it was quite funny with the things it did, not only did it buzz fast medium and slow, but another button made it grew long and expand it went up and down on its own and it wriggled too if I pressed another.I knew vaguely what it was, I wasn’t that naive, but I wasn’t 100% sure to be honest what mum really did with it, but again it was the first time I had really closely looked at one, let alone having the curiosity of what I could actually do with it, I mean there was no instructions with it or anything. Well there was no one home and i knew there wouldn’t be for quite a while so I just though what the hell, what harm could it do if I looked at it and examined it for a little while.
I took it back to my bedroom closely inspecting it all the way, I felt a little excited and my heart beat raised slightly as I thought this time I would explore and see what it did before I put it back where I had found it, Why I was excited I had no idea, but I think it was because of the shape of it. My parents had gone out shopping to Meadowhall and they were usually there for quite a few hours and I don’t know why this day of all days but I was feeling in quite an inquisitive mood with that inviting Vibrator.
When I got back to my bedroom, I closed the door and made myself comfortable in the middle of my nice new 3/4 bed with my back against the headboard still looking and inspecting the strange vibrator, I was turning it round and on its side, pressing different buttons and watching it do very strange things, it felt quite heavy to me and yes it looked as I imagined a man’s erect stiff cock would look, apart from that it was dark blue.
Looking back it was the fact that it looked like a huge hard man’s cock that fascinated me about it so much, I was at the right age for that sort of curiosity after all, but on the bottom side of it sticking out at first then running parallel was a dolphin with its tail fins at the base and its curved body and its nose pointing back slightly towards the shaft, I just couldn’t figure that bit out or why it was there for the life of me although it did buzz very fast and independently of the main shaft, I was totally baffled.
I pressed one button and the vibrator buzzed quite quickly almost in a shrill and I placed the vibrating tip against my arm and slid it up and down like the women on the advertisements I had seen in magazines, but that was useless, it did nothing for me and was very dull and boring, I wanted something a little more adventurous. My nipples seemed to be buzzing and tingling with excitement so I daringly and curiously placed the vibrator over the top of my blouse and against my nipple, wow they felt so sensitive that I pulled it away quickly as it was by far too strong a feeling, but all the same it still felt very nice, I thought if I could turn the buzz down a little it would be much better, I have always had quite large nipples that are very sensitive and constantly seem to stiffen up and stick right out most of the time, which sometimes I found this could be a quite embarrassing because people did noticed them.
I turned the vibrator buzz down a little bit to a little lower hum and then this time I ran it over the top of my blouse and moving in in circles closer and closer to my nipple, I was pleased how nice it felt, I really liked the feeling and I noticed that my nipples were already beginning to stick right out a lot more than usual and I felt them feeling quite hard and erect in excitement and anticipation.
Feeling a little more adventurous still, I took off my blouse and laid it on the bed by the side of me quite neatly, then I bent forward and unclasped my bra, now I felt a very naughty girl as I took it off because I knew I was about to do naughty things and tease my nipples further.
I picked up the vibrator with nervous anticipation as I laid back against the headboard and put the tip of the vibrator against my bare breast and moved it against my very sensitive and erect nipple, it tingled so intense that this time the buzz made me gasp out and I had to force myself to endure the tickly tingle that it gave me, I was soon gasping and squirmed from the pleasure as i swapping the vibrator from one stiff nipple to the other one and each time the feeling was very intense, I did this for quite a while as I slowly slid a little down the bed, at one point the pleasure was so incredibly powerful that I felt my whole body give a little shiver and I let myself squeal and cry out quite loud totally enjoying it.
As I slid down the bed a little further making myself more comfortable and still moving the vibrator between each nipple, I found that I got the best and most intense feeling by just barely touching the buzzing tip of the vibrator against the very erect tip of my now very tingling and very sensitive nipples, by now I couldn’t help but constantly groan out loud and squeal from the very intense pleasure I was getting, I even turned the buzz back up high and started touching my nipples again, this time I had again to really force myself to endure the fantastic sensation that it gave me and I heard myself freely gasp and squeal out loud as another little shiver had me squirming on the bed with the amazing feelings I was enjoying.
I noticed as I slid down the bed my head was propped up on the three pillows I had there, I noticed I had my knees up with my legs wide open and I noticed a gorgeous feeling between my legs and for the first time I was very aware of my pussy as a sexual feeling and I noticed that my lulu was feeling a little wet, I couldn’t help but wonder what kind of thrill the vibrator would give me down there and i dared myself to try it out, I turned the Buzz back down again and my hand with the vibrator moved slowly between my open legs with increasing excitement, my heart pounded as I slid the vibrator over the top of my kickers up and down over and around my whole pussy, oh my god I was surprised how nice it felt between my legs, Mmm I remember it was really nice and especially in some little areas it felt so incredible good.
I slid the vibrator slowly around exploring myself and curiously finding where it felt so good and where it felt just great for a little while. I wanted to get a little more daring with myself and I put the vibrator down by the side of me and I lifted my hips off the bed and very guiltily slid off my little yellow knickers. I knew I would get a much better and stronger feeling without my panties on and I felt so incredibly naughty and kinky as I knew from that moment on that I was going to use the vibrator to tease and play with my own pussy and I knew I wanted to pleasure myself, as i slid them off. I just left my knickers by the side of me on the bed and I was surprised that they felt a little damp from the moisture between my legs.
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I hitched up my pleated skirt quite easily to my waist as it was pretty short to begin with and it had ridden up due to me sliding down the bed. I searching with my hand for the vibrator by my side and I felt my heart again beating quite quickly with excitement. I moved the vibrator back between my legs and slowly moved and slid it around, wow I couldn’t believe how nice it felt now against my bare pussy and straight away I remember making little MMmm sounds as I again gently felt around and explored for the different sensitive areas around my little smooth pussy.
I parted my pussy lips with my fingers of my left hand and I now felt very wet down there between my legs, I found a very sensitive area at the top of my pussy, I knew what it was and I put the tip of the buzzing vibrator on my little clit I just gasped and groaned out instantly with the most incredible and delightful pleasure I had ever felt, I would move the vibrator around and around the whole of my pussy area and to be honest it felt nice everywhere, but after a while I discovered there were two places I kept moving the vibrator to, they were my clit and the very entrance of my pussy hole and I pushed it just a little harder each time so the very tip pushed just ever so slightly moved in to the opening of my pussy hole.
Then moving the buzzing up and gently touching the tip of my clit and slightly moving it around, sometimes barley touching it and sometimes pressing it down quite hard, the sensations were so strong it almost made my eyes water with pleasure and I was amazed as the feelings actually got stronger and stronger as I carried on, every now and then I would give an uncontrollable tiny shiver of pleasure, I would move the Vibrator too and fro from one part of my pussy to the other, I couldn’t help but gasp and groan as I teased myself and I openly squealed out and wanted to scream sometimes as the feeling built up as I started moving and gyrating my hips with the intense feeling of pleasure around my pussy that I was giving to myself with my mums vibrator.
At this point as I was enjoying the feeling of making circles around my clit and building the feeling and passion right up and then sliding it down my pussy lips right to my pussy hole as I part my pussy with my fingers and then moving the vibrator right on the edge and over my intimate entrance hole and making circles just on and around the entrance then pressing it down harder each time pushing it in just a fraction, it would make me gasp and groan as the narrow tip of the vibrator moved around just on the edge of my pussy hole and I was wanting to push it deeper as my imagination was now starting to run away with itself and I wondered what the vibrator would feel like actually being pushed deep in to my pussy, I was almost craving it, then I thought surly it must feel like the same as having sex and being fucked by a boy I mean the vibrator was exactly the right shape and everything.
In my very high state of passion I decided I wanted to do it, I switched the buzz of the vibrating cock off because I wanted it to seem and feel as real as possible, just as though I was really being fucked by someone, I thought of this man that came round to our house from time to time, he was a friend of my fathers and they played football in the same team, he was very handsome and nice, I must have had a little crush on him at the time. I very nervously but excitedly put my left hand down there and parted my very wet slippery pussy lips again with my fingers and with the vibrator in my right hand, I noticed the very tip was a little moist from my damp pussy but I sucked on the end of it to make it even wetter, I didn’t really think I needed to as my pussy was very wet with excitement, but I just wanted to make sure.
Then opening my legs as I moved the vibrator between them, I was gripping it about half way down the shaft and I guided it straight over my pussy hole, my head was propped up on three pillows with my knees up and my legs apart, excited and ready to except this cock that was giving me all this pleasure to my very eager wet pussy.
With my little clit and pussy still tingling deliciously like crazy with the vibrator and the guilty excitement of what I was going to do next to myself. I looked at the vibrator and the shaft looked very thick to me now, much thicker than a real man’s cock would be, (or so I thought at the time) so I decided i would slide it in to my pussy only a little, perhaps only 2 or 3 inches at first anyhow to see how it would feel.
In great nervous anticipation i guided it to the opening of my pussy hole and moving it around a little getting it comfortable and while I was feeling very naughty indeed I started to push the head of the vibrator in to my pussy. The vibrator was narrower at the tip but quickly got very thick and as it resisted just a little I pushed it a little harder and I felt it parting my wet pussy open as I pushed it deeper in, I groaned, I opened my legs a little wider helping it to enter me, I felt incredibly naughty as I felt the thick vibrator deliciously stretching my pussy open little by little as I felt it slowly sliding up and down, it did feel quite big inside me but I carried on pushing it a little deeper as I got used to it and with each gentle thrust I groaned out in surprise and delight at the lustful feelings, I instinctively opened my legs just a little wider as it seemed to feel kinkier and also hoping that would help me to accommodate this big thick cock sliding inside me although I was very wet and in the mood and that of course must have helped a great deal, I dropped my head back and closed my eyes panting, squealing and groaning as I slowly but eagerly slid it up and down my wet pussy and I remember now that I was pretending that I was being fucked by my dad’s friend.
As I got used to it a little more I got more and more daring and I slid it a little deeper and just a little faster each time groaning out louder and louder, it was feeling very kinky and very naughty as it got easier and more slippery, the feelings just got better and better, but as it slipped up deeper it still felt very big inside me, maybe a little too big for my first time perhaps but I just thought what the hell and I groaned out loud and long.
As I said, I had let my emotions really take me over and perhaps to justify carrying on pumping the large vibrator inside of me I started to pretended and fantasize that I was saying to the pretend man “NO ! PLEASE STOP! .. ITS SO BIG” but I imagined that he just kept fucking me and that my little tight virgin pussy was having to take his big cock as he just ignored my pleas and fucked me a even harder. I surprised myself because I was sliding it up and down quite fast and it felt so very deep and I liked the deep feeling I and was really enjoying my new found fun. I was panting and groaning like crazy with the naughtiness and it made it feel ever so kinky pretending I was being fucked on my bed, but at that point I must have accidentally caught and pressed one of the buttons and the vibrator started expanding and sliding and pushing right up my pussy even deeper without me doing anything and I uncontrollably yelled out with a little gasp, squeal and a deep groan at the same time, i raised my hips higher groaning as it moved ever so deep up me, I instinctively pressed the button that I thought switched it off and the dolphin’s tail started to buzz in a shrill right around the tip of my clit and I screamed out at the shock and the sensation of pleasure that they both gave me together.
I just couldn’t help myself as i moved the vibrator back and forth a little and it sent me way over the edge within a few seconds, I found the little fish nose buzzing on and around my little erect clit with this thing sliding up my pussy was a fantastic over powering feeling and I just groaned and groaned and groaned as the feelings got stronger throughout my whole body.
I let myself gasp out and i squealed loudly in my state of almost ultimate pleasure, then suddenly I felt my body start to shake as an almighty wave of pleasure started to build up in me and this time I let it go all the way, I arched my back and groaned out uncontrollably as my whole body shook and bucked violently in a wave of ultimate pleasure that I had never felt before in my life, I groaned and squealed out in ecstasy very loud till I felt the feeling slowly start to wain and subside a little and I slowly relaxed and panted on the bed.
Suddenly I heard mum on the top of the stairs calling my name, in blind panic and in disbelief i pulling the vibrator out of my pussy quickly, I leapt bolt upright and saw in absolute horror my bedroom door start to open and again in a panic i dropped the vibrator on the floor on the blind side away from the door so no one could see it just as mum walked in, she stood there for a moment just staring at me as I sat there in the middle of my bed panting with just a short skirt on (thankfully) but my knickers on the bed by the side of me, She asked “what you doing and what’s all that noise you was making, you sound as if you are in pain and I thought that you was crying … Are you?” then amazingly my brother and father also came walking in to my room at the same time as I stuttered for an answer and I was still breathing heavy and almost still panting “err … Nothing, why” I gasped out of breath, I was feeling so amazingly embarrassed and I could feel my face burning and turning bright red, my mind was racing like crazy for an answer, as it seemed to me the whole street walking in my room, but for the life of me I couldn’t think of any answer at all, my mind was a complete blank and it seemed to me so obvious that I had been,… Exploring myself.
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But one thing I could answer was “excuse me” I asked, “Why has everyone in the family just walked out of the street and deciding to walk straight in to my bedroom as though this is the new living room? With not even a knock or anything”… “Yes, you are right, I am sorry” said mum, “it was just I thought you had hurt yourself and I thought you was crying” at this point I am begging to myself "oh no please don’t ask what I was doing again," I was very self conscious that mums vibrator was on the carpet by the side of my bed, now if everyone stayed over there or walked out I was fine, but if they came round this side ... I was dead or would hope to be. Then dad said, “erm what you doing, why have you no clothes on at his time of day?” in a very inquisitive manner, that’s when i felt my face turn red again as I still hadn’t thought of any answer at all, “oh … err .. yes, erm, I know” I stuttered with a silly cheesy smile, as everyone just stood there in silence looking at me and waiting for my answer, then suddenly a brain wave just jumped right in to my head and I excitedly almost joyfully shouted out “I was just going to get in to the shower and I damn well stubbed my toe on the bedpost and it hurt like hell and I jumped on the bed to rub it," (oh and how I rubbed it) I after thought, "Well" said father "you seem really happy about it, i don't think i would be if i had just kicked the bottom of the bed in my bare feet." I changed the subject by saying, “right, now can I have some privacy, please” god I was so pleased with my excuse, even if it was a long shot.
“Not yet,” my brother said excitedly, “dad has got you something” and my father started walking over to me with a great big smile, I panicked and screamed out in a fluster “No!! No!!, not now ….later …yes later, show me later, let me get in the shower first, I don’t have any clothes on do I !!”
Mum butt in at this point and quite assertively, (which was unusual for mum) she said “Angel is right, we can’t just barge in to her room when she is getting ready to shower and is almost naked, what are we all thinking of, gifts can wait a few minutes” and she bundled everyone out of my bedroom, much to the surprise of my dad and especially my younger brother who was trying to look as though he wasn't ogling my tits, I heard my father and brothers footsteps go downstairs, but my mum didn’t, she went in to her bedroom and I was shocked to hear that she went straight to the wardrobe where I had found her toy and I hoped that she hadn't realised what i had been doing, or rather what i would be doing it with, maybe she was just going to her wardrobe I then thought, then I hoped that she didn’t notice her toy was missing.
I laid back on to my bed in a heap and I just wanted the whole planet to swallow me up with the embarrassment I felt, I was feeling so ashamed of myself that I had let things get so out of control and as I laid there I felt so cheap and dirty and I felt physically sick with shame and embarrassed about the stupid and horrible dirty thoughts I had been having.
I laid there for about 15 minutes without moving, my mind just turning things over and over and thinking what might of been, suppose mum had just walked in to my room a minute earlier and saw me there fucking myself with that great big thing up my pussy while I was in the height of my passion and then my brother and father walking in and seeing me as well, I felt myself turning red just thinking about it, I think I would have killed myself if that had happened… Honestly, although heaven knows it was embarrassing enough without that.
Looking back, I know now I should never have got so carried away, it was good up my pussy even though it felt too big for me at the time and I shouldn’t have gone that far, I should have just playing with myself and had an orgasm with the vibrator buzzing my clit, again I just got too carried away which I regretted for a long long time.
I picked myself up off the bed and got in the shower and gave myself a good wash down everywhere twice or three times, I stayed in there for quite a while, then as I got dressed and forced myself to go down stairs and face everyone, as soon as I walked in the living room I just had the feeling everyone knew what I had been doing and I slunk in to the nearest chair. Mum broke the silence when she asked me “so how is it, is it sore now.” “how’s what” I asked in shock as I was miles away, “your toe, how’s your toe, you stubbed it against the bed post, remember” “oh that, yes its fine” “are you sure you didn’t break it, let me look” she carried on, “no, no its fine now, thanks” I said playing it down, but mum didn’t let it rest and came over to me to look at my toe, I lifted my foot so she could see it was alright, “oh yes, its fine” she smiled as she rubbed them “you have such pretty toe’s, don’t you” and she sat back down and carried on, “well it must have hurt a lot with all that noise you was making” at this point I am beginning to think mum is winding me up a little, but she carries on “mind you I once did that too on the bed post and it was that painful I almost bust in to tears on the bed like you” I started to try and think of something to say to change the subject, but I couldn’t, so I went in the kitchen and got a cold glass of milk to cool myself down, but that evening as I watched TV for the first time in my life I could feel my pussy all night.
I had sneaked her vibrator back a few hours later when she nipped out again, I hoped I was wrong and she didn’t know what I had been doing, maybe it was just my guilty conscience, Mum never said anything to me about it anyway… thankfully, and we did speak about many things.
As I laid in bed that night thinking about what had happened, I couldn’t believe my bad luck as usual, every week mum and dad go out shopping for a few hours, but this week of all weeks, for the very first time they come back early, not only that, but they all, all of them trail through the front door straight up the stairs and in to my bedroom, not to the living room and put the TV on or to the kitchen like they usually would do putting the shopping away, that way I would have heard them, No they come in and up the stairs just at the moment when for the first time in my life I am have my first orgasm, how sick was that.
A couple of weeks later, dad had been working away and mum had gone out to visit friends, I was on my own again, I guiltily went to see if mums toy was there, not to use it or anything, but this time it wasn’t there, in the past it always had been, my heart sunk as I fumbled at the back of the draw for it, it seemed such a big thing so you couldn’t miss it, the draw was empty except for her knickers and I knew at that point she must have known what I had been doing and that really deflated me and I felt ashamed of myself all over again. What would mum have thought of me, I looked in the other drawers just in case I was wrong, but no she had obviously moved her vibrator.
I walked out of her bedroom feeling really down and I could feel myself burning with embarrassment, but as I got to her bedroom door I don’t know why or what made me do it, but I looked back, I walked back to her bed and lifted the pillow, there it was, I was so pleased to see it there, I stared at it in delight, maybe mum didn’t find out about what I had been doing after all, maybe she was using it that morning or last night and just forgot to put it back, I laid the pillow back down over it and tapped the pillow in delight and I walked out of her room now really pleased.
It was a long time before I did anything remotely like that to myself again, I had the feeling a few times but the guilt of nearly being caught before would have been unbelievably embarrassing and that turned me off again. I don’t think I would have ever lived that down in two life times, even so I have never inserted anything again, apart from a real cock that is, and even then I was wrong, it feels nothing like the real thing, not as far as I am concerned anyway, that’s why I said it’s easier for boys, it’s a lot less complicated for them …. Don’t you think?
So the point of recounting my first time will become clear later, anyway, 6.30 arrived and my parents went out like they did the night before, they gave me the same rundown of “make sure Jon’s not up late dar de dar de dar” “yes, yes just have a nice night and don’t worry,” I said, ... you know how it goes.
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I did this and that watched a little TV then went in to the kitchen where Jon was sitting and having a snack and I said to him as innocent as I could, “ I missed that film last night and I so wanted to watch it with you, why don’t you go to your bedroom and put that film on again, I will watch a little with you if you like before you go to bed” his face lit up instantly and he said very enthusiastically “yes that would be great,” I was wondering if he would say that and I wondered if he was thinking of doing what he did the night before.
He finished his snack and homework and said soon after a while “I will put the film on now, are you ready, I will just have a wash first” and he went upstairs and I heard him go to his room to put the DVD on, I was delighted and I could feel the excitement building in me already, i decided to leave it for about half as hour before I went up to him and the time absolutely dragged, I found myself looking at the clock every few minutes, but after about 20 minutes he shouted down to me “are you coming up, come on I want you to come now, or you will miss the start of it,” I was pleased he called me and I shouted back with excitement and relief “Yes I am coming up now.”
I was feeling silly that I was excitement as I walked up the stairs, my heart was pounding and as I walked in to his bedroom I felt almost like a cheap slapper who was just being called to be used for sex, I thought at that point it wasn't right and i would just do as i said and watch the film with him and watch the film, but one thing that was at the back of my mind was, i was aware at that point of what is between my legs, sometimes I was very aware that my pussy gave a slight feeling, sound silly i know, anyway I wasn’t sure that anything would happen if i did pretend to fall asleep and that just added to the tension.
He had put the same film on as I walked in and he moved down the bed again so I could lay in the same place as the night before, I watched it with him for quite a while but the thought was going through my mind and the curiosity was killing me, it was if i couldn't help it, I decided i would do the same thing again and as I laid on the edge of the bed and watched the film with him a little longer, This time I only pretended to feel sleepy and I noticed he kept looking at me eagerly but slyly every minute or so, I yawned then said, “I feel a little sleepy, I think I will have a little sleep, you don’t mind do you” “no its alright, you go to sleep, I don’t mind at all” he said really chirpy, then i laid my head on the pillow by the edge of the bed like before and I closed my eyes but not the whole way, I just left them open ever so little so I could still see him and I pretended to go to sleep.
I was really curious to what he would do and how he got himself in to that situation, you know, how it all started, Well nothing happened for what seemed quite a while and I thought he wasn’t going to do anything after all, so I did a little snore to see if that did anything, not that I do snore you understand, but just to make him think I was fast asleep, but still he did nothing, I thought I would give another little snore and if nothing happened this time i would just pretend to wake up, But this time I saw him sat there staring at me and not the television and he did that for what seemed quite a while, I snored a couple of times, just very tiny little ones, he gave it another half a minute, then I could feel and see him very slowly move and gradually he come over close towards to me, now I could feel my heart beating and I was shaking with excitement wondering if the little pervert would do anything like he did last night or weather it was just a stupid one off, perhaps something that seemed a good idea, but regretted it later on.
Slowly and deliberately he bent over me to make sure I was asleep and he quietly called out my name to see if I responded, he called my name a little louder, then quite loud, but i just laid there as if I was sound asleep, he stood up by me and I fractionally opened my eyes a little more ever so slightly.
I saw his head and eyes move to look and my bare feet and noticed his eyes move slowly up my legs till he got to just above my knees and hemline then his eyes stopped and fix there, his hand moved and I looked as I felt him gently lift my dress and he stood there looking at my legs for a while as if he had never seen a pair of legs before, then after he had a good look he gently laid my skirt back down again
He moved his eyes back to my face again and just looked at me, then with out taking his eyes off my face I watched as his hand slowly moved to the zip on his trousers .......
From this point on as I wrote this and read it back I found that I very slightly exaggerated this a little, its not much and I didn't mean to, but that's how it comes across, so I wasn't that pleased with it, I was going to re-write it but I don't have time right now, its all correct, its all as it was, but it comes across that it went a little further than it really did ..... I will explain at the end.
slowly he unfastened the button on the top of his trousers, this is it I thought, he is going to do it again, I could feel my breath shorten with the excitement as he moved just a little bit closer towards me, he moved his crotch a little in front of my face, I opened my eyes ever so slightly more and I could see him pulling his underpants slowly down until out springs his little but very excited hard prick that is about 4 inches long and looked very white indeed, he pulled his underpants and trousers down to his thighs and his little prick was right in front of my face and I could see it oh so gently throbbing up and down, he stood there for a tiny moment staring down at me and I thought perhaps he had noticed I was awake and watching, but he hadn’t and he moved his right hand up to his hard cock and he started to caressed it and gently stroke it back and forth very slowly, I thought boys just got hold of their cocks and would just start to rub it quite quickly, apparently not from what I was watching. He was very gentle with it and slowly built up the length of the stroking and he would stroke his tight little balls too, after a little while of doing this he very slowly and gently started to rub his cock in longer strokes back and forth, giving me a perfect view of how a boy wanks himself off, bless him.
Very quickly the strokes of his hand got longer up and down his shaft and he started quietly groaning as he rubbed himself harder, this might not last long I thought as I wanted to watch his cock cum and shoot his load, I was now fascinated by the emotion and sight of it squirting out as I still am, That seems to have stayed with me. He slightly moved his cock closer to my face as he got more and more excited, my lips felt uncomfortably dry and I couldn't help but lick them a little to moisten them, people must do that when they are asleep anyway I thought, but he stopped instantly in what he was doing and he bent down and stared right down at me for a little while, making sure a was still asleep and not waking up at all, I again gave a little snore and this convinced him that I was still asleep and he again started to slowly rub his little hard cock again, as he thought I was fast asleep he got brave and he started to wank even closer to my face and again sometimes accidentally touching me with the tip of his cock.
Like the day before as he rubbed his cock in long strokes his foreskin started to peel back as his hand pulled back on his little cock and it seemed to shine bright pink against his very white cock and it seemed to flash red and white as his foreskin went back and forth.
With his little hard prick in his hand, what he did next shocked me so much, whilst still wanking the whole time he guided the tip of his cock slowly to my mouth, my heart was beating loud and fast as he brought the tip of his cock up to and gently touching it against my lips as he now very carefully wanked with longer slow strokes groaning, I felt his little hard cock press ever so gently but slightly firmer between my lips, my lips must have been slightly apart as I laid there, and as he wanked I felt the tip of his cock was now pressing ever so slightly firmer between my lips slightly pushing it forward, he was still wanking but very slowly and gently pressing his hard cock against my moist lips, but he didn’t stop there, it soon felt he was pushed his prick a little harder and deeper and I felt his cock ever so slowly pushing and parting my lips a little wider as it edged forward, I couldn’t believe it, I thought god, the cheeky little pervert isn’t going to try to wank in my mouth is he, surly not, surly he wouldn’t dare go that far, I just couldn’t believe it, but as I very gradually looked down so he wouldn’t notice I could feel and see him pushing his little cock very slowly deeper between my lips as he rocked very gently backwards and forwards as his hand wanked at the base of his cock, he groaned even longer and I started to get quite worried about how far he would eventually try to go with me.
My mind raced like crazy on what was he going to do next and what should I do for the best, I thought I could lick my lips again as that stopped him last time, but then I would lick the tip of his cock and I didn’t fancy that and what if it made him worse, then I thought should I just let him carry on, or maybe I should just pretend to wake up very gradual, but then what if he froze like last time and if I pretended to stay asleep or could I let him carry on pushing it between my lips, it was only a little between my lips, but then what if he started to push it even deeper and all the way in to my mouth, but would that be better than waking up and confronting him with what he was doing and having a big scene about it, that would be so embarrassing too and we would both have to live with the fact that I had caught him trying to push his cock in my mouth and have that memory for the rest of our lives and I didn’t want that, but then I noticed his cock was moving a little faster between my lips as I feared and he was groaning more and louder. It seemed to me things were moving on by the second faster than I could think things through.
Then he suddenly stopped and just slightly withdrew his cock just a very tiny little bit and I thought thank god for that, as I say he was talking things far by far further than I ever in the world imagined he would, but then that’s boys for you isn’t it. Then as he stood there with the very tip of his prick only just between my lips he took his hand off his little hard cock and again I would have breathed a sigh of relief if I could have, I hoped that now he had has fun he would now just wank himself off like I hoped he would do originally.
But no far from it, with his stiff little cock just between my lips he leaned over me and put his hands gently down on the bed behind me, then he very slowly rocked and moved his hips forward and started to push his cock back a little deeper between my lips, only a little at first, back and forth rocking but getting a tiny little deeper and deeper each time and I realized he was really going to try to fuck my mouth, I couldn’t resist or he would know I was awake and letting him do it, Very slow and very gentle but fucking back and forth all the same, he was pulled his prick almost out between my lips then he gently slid his hard stiff little cock slowly back in, only a little mind you, only the very tip of his cock you understand but it seemed much deeper to me, I could hear him groaning so much in pleasure his breath gasped and he panting although his hips was moving so slow back and forth.
I felt I was left with no choice but to wake up and confront him, but I just couldn’t, I didn’t want to do that with his cock in my mouth, strangely I felt much more embarrassed about waking up and confronting him than pretending to stay asleep, the horrible experience of almost being caught masturbating by my mum was so humiliating that it played on my mind now. I knew as I said before that I would have to admit that my brother had pushed his cock in my mouth and we would both have to live with that memory for the rest of our lives and that just played on my mind so much, I thought that maybe he wouldn’t do it for long, maybe he would have to stop soon anyway, then my mind jumped to “oh my god, what if he cums in my mouth” I thought…. NO No, don’t be silly he wouldn’t do that, I thought if he gave any sign he was cumming and not stopping, I would have to stop him no matter what. So it seems that was what I had made my mind up to do, I would let him do it for a little while and see what happens, after all it wasn’t that bad I suppose.
He was moving his little cock back and forth very slowly between my lips and after a little while it seemed he was sliding about half way in to my mouth and it felt quite deep but it pretty much stayed like that for a while, but it was getting hard to keep so still for him, as he rocked back and forth with his little cock in my mouth, but then I just couldn’t help but move a little once as he slid forward in to my mouth, that was strange because for the first time it made my mouth and tongue clearly feel his warm prick in my mouth, I couldn’t really feel it that much before, I just felt it between my lips a little, but now I could feel his hard prick and feel his skin move and everything, as he got braver he was fucking away very gently and very rhythmically gasping like hell I can still imagine it to this
..... To be continued, this is far from over, the most embarrassing day of my life .. until ten years later
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